My word,
it has been so bumpy lately. Steven has taken another stab at quitting chewing tobacco and has been more successful than in the past, in four hours it will be 6 days since hes’ quit.
My mom got married on Easter night.
I got rid of Facebook.
I am almost done with the second book of The Hunger Games (its called Catching Fire).
I’ve had more than a dozen major mood swings.
I start class on April 30th. Cant wait till that is over.
Still thinking of babies.
I have nightmares every night.
Need a break from life.
Although its scary to think of death and/or the rapture. Its all I think about anymore. It is not easier knowing that one day Ill see Seth, its just better knowing that every day, Im one day closer.
Its all too much for my tiny little brain to wrap around. That Seth is up there and I am down here. Its so far away.
You’re in a better place, I’ve heard a thousand times
And at least a thousand times I’ve rejoiced for you
But the reason why I’m broken, the reason why I cry
Is how long must I wait to be with you
I close my eyes and I see your face
If home’s where my heart is then I’m out of place
Lord, won’t you give me strength to make it through somehow
I’ve never been more homesick than now
Help me Lord cause I don’t understand your ways
The reason why I wonder if I’ll ever know
But, even if you showed me, the hurt would be the same
‘Cause I’m still here so far away from home
I close my eyes and I see your face
If home’s where my heart is then I’m out of place
Lord, won’t you give me strength to make it through somehow
I’ve never been more homesick than now
In Christ, there are no goodbyes
And in Christ, there is no end
So I’ll hold onto Jesus with all that I have
To see you again
To see you again
And I close my eyes and I see your face
If home’s where my heart is then I’m out of place
Lord, won’t you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won’t you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won’t you give me strength to make it through somehow
I’ve never been more homesick than now
