Well, We have come to 34 weeks, about the time that I had Seth in September of 2011. From here on out, this is all new to me. The bigger baby, the heavier feeling. It is all very welcome but I am ready to have this baby. Im ready to meet my daugther. I went to my specialist today. He said that everything is looking good but my blood pressure is still borderline at home. I just have to keep taking it daily and all. I asked about the baby’s weight. I am a little concerned because well- the baby is almost 6 pounds!!!! HOLY MOLY. Ok, so shes exactly 5lbs 10 oz to be exact and is 18 in long. Seth was born at 34 weeks and weighed 5 lbs exactly and was 19.5 in long. So The doctor said that she will probably be on the big side of the average scale (shes running in the 80th percentile) but in a way it is good news. HOW?? (a freaked out mother like me would ask lol), he said that usually hypertension causes a baby to be small so at least we know that my blood pressure is not effecting the baby because she is a little large. To that I replied- so what kind of weight are we looking at here? The doc said that he does not want me to go past 39 weeks (Im measuring a week ahead anyways) so if they schedule me to have the baby between 38 and 39 weeks he’s guesstimating a baby around 8.5 pounds…. (!!!! HOW AM I GOING TO DO THAT???) lol… I guess it sounds scary but it is only scary because this is really happening, Im so close and Im really going to have a baby :D. Ill be 38 weks on Dec. 28th and it is my goal to have this baby no later than the 30th lol… Ill be doing all kinds of jumping jacks and squatting and walking. I cant wait- Im 4 weeks away from having this baby (most likely). It would be cute to have a Christmas baby but honestly- I want to enjoy my Christmas food- ugh I cant wait, it just sounds so good thinking about it (the food). Man all of this baby day dreaming is getting me all crazy :).
Wow I have so much to do! washing, fixing the baby’s room up, baby shower…. Speaking of, I am having my baby shower on Saturday. I was not excited until today. (this may get confusing) I work at a hospital, all of our local hospitals (4 of them) are owned by the same company, I work at a central/south location. Well today I went to the main campus downtown (where my mother in law works) because one of the cardiologists was having a baby shower and I made her a little owl security blanket and got her a few gifts. (I freakin love this doctor she is sooooo cute!) Anyways it was so much fun to see her smile and have a good time! I am glad that I went because it kind of put me in the mood for my own; I have not at all been wanting to have a shower. Thankfully my mother in law is helping out with the cake and punch and some early arrivers will help me set up the decoration stuff. Im just so excited that its so stinking close now lol. I feel like I have sooo much to do and so little time to do it! Really my husband is the one who has all the work to do. :).
In home news, we are all moved it, it is not exactly as organized as I want but Oh well, I cant do much at this point with limited bending and such. Aida (our husky), has adjusted well. She sleeps alot but Im soooo glad to see her feeling a little better. I think she was sad about leaving the other dog that she hung out with at my in laws but that was a great growing experience for her. She has had no accidents in the week that she has been here. The only thing is that she was not eating at all… unless is was human food and I didnt want to give her any till she started to eat her dog food. Well FINALLY today I took her for a walk and when we came back she went to her food bowl and ate her food (VICTORY IS MINE!). So proud of my baby girl :). She even has been loving on me and sleeping next to my side of the bed the last two nights because Ive been sick (she never sleeps on my side, she loves her dad so much). I had a fever last night and yesterday I was just sick all day long and she just slept right next to me and never left my side, shes still sleeping next to me as I type this.. I love that girl 🙂
Ok, Ill stop all my crazy talk, I really need a nap so I can rid this awful sinus thing I got going on.
AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY to the most wonderful woman in the world, my MOMMA! Im so happy to have you around and I hope it was a good day. I owe you a cake when Im feeling better and I have no chance of contaminating it and getting you sick 🙂
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The last 2 days have been extremely hard. I have cried a lot.
We moved, the house is a mess, I can’t bend over to pick things up, I cant lift, I cant arrange the furniture how I want it, and it is beyond quiet because we dont have cable or anything, (oh, and… Aida is not here yet because we still have to get her cleaned before we bring her over).
Then… Steven is ALWAYS working. Thank goodness. It just makes me extremely lonely sitting in this quiet dark house for 16 hours a day while he is working. He does not get weekends off, he does not get full days off, he’s simply on call all the time. Thats the joy of working for yourself. He was ‘tired’ from work and moving things over to the house that he hasnt wanted to do much but he’s going out to a a park this weekend with the guys (and one of the guys obsessed girlfriend who cant leave the poor man alone to have a guy date). I am not going because there is no bathrooms or running water and at 32 weeks I will not squat in the trees, I can barely move. He will be gone camping for the whole weekend… so here I am… bored.. alone… its just so stinking lonely to have no one to talk to all day. At least if Aida was here she would listen to me.
Thats another story I get all anxious and angry because every day that passes I am able to move less which means the longer steven waits to re-arrange the furniture that was just thrown in the house, and get aida in the house (shes too big and hairy for my car, he has to lift her into his truck) to train her how to deal with the baby- the less time I will be able to clean and actually take care of things before the baby gets here. I dont want the house looking like this but I feel so unable to do anything till he ‘has time’ to help.
I went to the specialist on Monday- everything looked fine but my blood pressure has it’s spurts of being on the high side. He did say that the baby is slightly large :(. Then I went to my OB on Thursday and they did a non stress test, which they will do every week now. I had 2 contractions in 20 minutes that I could feel, 1 being almost off of the gridded chart. He said if I have more than 6 in a day then I have to drink 5 glasses of water and if they continue within the hour I have to be seen to stop them…. I have since noticed that I have about 2-3 a day. Im 32 weeks… I just want to make it to 37 and Ill be all game to go then.
Im getting prepartum depression… just feeling really awful physically and emotionally. I guess Im just so used to being around someone that being around NO ONE has made me want to pull my hair out
I can tell that the end of this pregnancy is drawing near. These symotoms that I have been having were the last things I felt before I gave birth to Seth.
– hard time sleeping, every joint aches (mostly hands and shoulders), when I walk I can feel my hips pop in and out (I literally feel them growing outwards), high blood pressure, lots of potty time, all day headaches, and severe nightly heartburn. *Phew, did that cover everything?
It does not bother me as much this time around because I know that it is normal and I know that I dont have to deal with it much longer. Except, … the blood pressure issue. Who knows why I have such high blood pressure, no one can figure it out. I am (normally) a normal weight, young, non-smoking, lots of walking -girl. They have done kidney scans, urine tests, protein tests, heart tests… nothing shows up. I switched from an automatic wrist cuff to a manual blood pressure cuff and there is a dramatic difference. The automatic cuff was not getting a proper reading. Last night when I checked it, I had just been sitting on the couch for about an hour doing nothing and it was 180/100 !???? Then, I waited a few minutes and asked Steven to take it to make sure I wasnt being crazy and it was 170/90!? Thats just scary. If my bp is that high when Im just sitting here, Im sure that it will be very high in delivery and I dont want to have to do a c-section only because its obviously scary. I can almost guarantee that they will put me back on procardia to lower my bp so I dont get pre-eclampsia or have a stroke or something. Im just so scared. After hearing that Seth probably died from a medicine that the last midwife gave me- I am TERRIFIED to take ANYTHING!
So anyways, as my headaches incur, I will try not to think about my blood pressure, moving, or anything for that matter because I am sooo close to the end and I will not let anyone screw this up!
Gonna try to take my pressure again, sleep this headache away, and wait for a phone call from my husband on whether or not we can move some small things over like pots and pans today to the new house.
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Heartburn unbearable- I will post cause I have not been keeping up very well.
As I stay home on medical leave for my blood pressure, I feel guilty (for not contributing to the finances). To combat this feeling I keep busy. Well now we have some more big news that will keep me exhausted till Brea comes.
We’re moving! Not far away, lol, just down the street but it will be nice to get out on our own and have a small place so that Brea can have her own room. We have her crib and junk stuffed between our room and the living room right now. Im soooo nervous for things to work out but I have to trust in God and pray pray pray that He provides work for my hard working husband.
Have I mentioned how proud I am of Steven lately!? He has been working his booty off to make things work for this family. He has moved a ton of stuff around for me (and is about to move more) and he has put up with my whining, and has loved me up. I love him. He’s the best husband/dad.
So now I have a ton to be overwhelmed about, getting everything moved over and organized before this baby is due (in 9 weeks)… I have a very strong feeling that she is coming early too… I have a lot of braxton’s and she is very ready to see her momma :).
OH… and I probably sound like a crazy person but Im so excited- we bought our first ‘serious’ vacuum and Im sooo happy that it works great because the old dinky one we had before dosnt pick up much :p.
anywho, I hope that my nerves can stay in tact and I can handle it all. I know Steven can.
31 weeks and ready to be done with this 😀
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