Tag Archives: I Will Carry You: The Sacred Dance of Grief and Joy

Trying

These past few days have just not been good… I don’t feel like myself. I feel like a zombie. I’ve had severe insomnia. I haven’t gotten more than 2 hours of sleep a night since last week. My brain feels like mush. I cant get my words to come out right. I’m exhausted. I don’t know why I cant sleep, its soooo aggravating. I’m moody, angry, crying…. I have had a couple of panic attacks in the last few days. I just feel crazy. I’m so tired. Im really emotional. Yesterday was really scary. My face and tongue and hands went numb for a few minutes but thankfully feeling came back after a few minutes. I’ve had stabbing headaches and my body has ached especially in my joints.

My husband is outside having a meeting with the guys, they are about to take off for work again this week. That is depressing. I want to cry. I want him to be home but I know hes trying to support me, us. Sometimes the people that they hire, I don’t like but… whatever its not my say.

Im still SLOWLY getting through my book “I will carry you” from Angie Smith. I dont want to put it down but Ive been so tired lately that I have to.

Today I bought yarn and crochet hooks. I’m going to teach myself! And I’m going to make awesome stuff lol… or so I think. Like this!

anyways, you get the ideas, theres tons of useful things you can make. And if I get good and have time I want to learn to sew again… I just need something simple and small to keep me busy, I’ve been feeling way to awful lately.

Here’s the stuff I bought

Im going to start off with a scarf just so I can get the technique down cause I have no clue what I’m doing.  Wish me luck. I hope I keep up with this and make something cool.

Meanwhile. My list to do this week

school, grocery shopping, check out car loan approval, laundry, read, and SLEEP

http://www.crochetpatterncentral.com/directory.php

This site is awesome for stuff to make 😀

P.S.- I don’t post on weekends cause my husband is home then 😀

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