Let me set it clear. NO ONE IS PERFECT – NO , NOT ONE! Lets be real here. Lets be genuine, lets not be all churchy, lets be authentic. There is nothing wrong with having a clean time out. I can be somewhere that serves alcohol, like sitting in the bar room of red lobster because there are no other seats, going to my favorite beef o bradys for wings or mom and pop sports bar for their pizza. Like bowling at our favorite lane who has a bar next to the food shop. The world will not end, I will not be a bad example. Im not trying to be rude but we have become so consumed by what others are doing and not about how they are doing it that when we hear things, we assume things. This is the exact reason why as I get older I have a hard time staying in church. I do not feel close enough to anyone who will not judge me. Yup, I went line dancing last night with Steven and another young married couple. Yup, I horrifically failed and almost peed my pants from laughing. Yup, me and the other girl are pregnant and 21/22. Yup, we drank water and had a heck of a good time. Yup, we left before my grandmas bed time. Yup, I participated in nothing wrong, and had CLEAN fun with very good fellow christian friends.
The point is, I am not participating in anything bad. I am to answer for my own actions. I am learning to NOT be a home-body and still keep my body in check with what I believe. Christianity is not about amish living, its not about being a stick in the mud, its not about not enjoying the 1 life that God gave you. If you can go out and have sober fun and show others what its like to be filled with the spirit, go for it! I will not judge you for where you are or what youre doing because you have the right to make good or bad decisions anywhere you want. I could choose to let a plethora of alcohol into my home (same as a bar) but I dont, because 1. I dont like it, 2. I dont need it, 3. it does matter that God says that I should not be drunken with wine, 4. that dosnt even really matter because I have no desire lol… its gross and not my thing- chocolate is.
I can dance, and be big, and laugh. there is a big misconception that Christians cannot go into the world, out of our homes and have fun, that they MUST only have fun with other christians. (mind you we did go to dinner and line dancing with other christians lol).
Its about how you act in your surroundings not where your at. I do not go to a bar and sit at the bar while my friends or strangers are drinking. I go line dancing with friends (who are not alcoholics), drink water, and leave when my baby is pushing the pee out of my bladder from my attempt at 2-stepping. I bowl. I go to movies that are not G rated. I eat out at my favorite resteraunts because they have the best food. I go ride on the ranger in the woods with our dogs, I dont sit in my house and crochet away my entire life.
Just setting the story straight. I have many a friends that I cannot lead to church because of this exact reason. They have good clean moral values and are scared to be judged that their moral values are not good enough, let alone believe in a God who led these people to judge others values. When God convicts you, its a slap in the face and you know it, it has happened plenty of times. So far, I am proud of the example that I try to lead, especially in public, and I have no regrets or convictions for having a sober, laughing, good time, with other pregnant friends :).
I dont want anyone to defend their stand.In fact, I dont really care to have your comments on this rant. I am telling you what standards I set myself to and each person has their own, I do not choose to judge or talk about your standards unless I think it is doing you regrettable and dangerous physical and/or spiritual harm. (and even then, I do not publicly talk to you or about you. I would privately ask to speak to you… I really have only done this once in my life because I believe in personal conviction, not being in someones business)
Now, moving on,
in baby news-
Our little bundle of amazingness- is now 1 pound 12 oz. She is 13 inches long. She loves chocolate still (I have cut down on coke-a-cola , I dont remember the last time I had one). In 2 and a half weeks I go back to my regular OB for my glucose test. Ill be 29 weeks (oh my goodness). I am soooo NOT excited about that glucose test, I almost threw up last time. THEN- that same night after that morning glucose appointment and work, I have my 4D ultrasound- YAY YAY YAY!!!! I cant wait! THEN- I see my maternal fetal medicine specialist the next week and from there on I have an appointment EVERY WEEK so Ill see MFM one week and my OB the next. I can slightly see the end of the tunnel! I am so close to my 3rd trimester and it will really fly with all of these doctor appointments approaching. I am so excited! I am getting horrendously big and the baby is growing… as long as this baby is a-ok, I am thrilled. Not too long to go now.
Too Beautiful For Earth 
& that is why I cannot get myself to walk into church. I used to be so involved, but now I’m scared to be judged for being me (a me who has strong morals and a pretty firm belief system).
mmmmmmmmm chocolate is my thing too 😉